After Near-Death Overdose, Musician Says "I'm Sorry" with New Track
Award-winning Melbourne hip hop artist Matthew Colwell, known by his fans as 360, should have died a year ago. After reaching a point of downing upwards of 90 pills a day, the 29-year-old woke up in a hospital bed and was placed on suicide watch for 30 days, forcing him to cancel the second half of his tour supporting his 2014 album Utopia.
On January 8th, he celebrated one year of sobriety by finally coming clean with his fans about exactly what happened. Colwell dropped a video of himself delivering an impassioned rap about the time right before a show, mid-tour, when his codeine addiction should have taken his life. The honest and inspiring lyrical account of his near-fatal overdose cuts deep, with enough fervor to crack even the toughest of exteriors.
"I was a zombie, I couldn't feel nothing
I smashed four packets because I just wanted to feel something.
Yo, I overdosed for sure.
I was at the venue, I was going to perform.
I can't remember, see I was told in the report.
My tour manager found me convulsing on the floor.
Everyone surrounding, no one knowing what it's for.
Literally no one knew that I was going through it all.
I fucked up, I should be knowing this before.
I'm a fuckign junkie, how am I going on a tour?
I let down my fans, and I owe it to 'em all.
That's why I'm being honest and so open with it all."
Titled "I'm Sorry" and set to The XX's "Intro," the track is addressed to his fans and any and all viewers who struggle with addiction or know someone who has or still does. "I'm Sorry" will be available on his free mixtape, Please Be Seated 3, which he says is coming "soon as fuck." The mixtape will be the first release since his third studio album in 2014.
The video has gone viral, generating over 194k likes, 97k shares and over 24k comments of fans and viewers relating to his experience or expressing gratitude for telling his story and giving those who are suffering hope.
"The battle with addiction's a battle on its own.
The worse part is that I tried to battle it alone.
So if you're hearing this, and you're battling at home,
tell somebody because your family should know.
I'm loving life now, I'm getting it back.
If I can do this shit, fucking anyone can."
Colwell provided Australian hotlines for addiction and suicide, and a commenter posted a 24/7 hotline in the US: 1-888-827-7180. Help us continue the awesome outpouring of love and support by sharing this article or 360's original post.